My own perspective of my A.D.D

I was diagnosed with A.D.D when I was in grade 2. I was one of the only girls in resource (special ed) through out my school years. Many girls don’t ever get diagnosed, I guess I should be happy at least I got extra help. I have a language, reading and writing disorder. Memory problems and I have a different way of learning and a difficult time understanding concepts. It’s amazing I am writing this blog! It’s therapeutic for me to try to get my point across since most of the time I am missunderstood. I have a hard time organizing my thoughts and then finding the right way to speak them.  It takes me a long time to write one post and I don’t put pressure on myself because I don’t need that stress. I have enough stress. It’s common for A.D.D women to feel overwhelmed and life is out of control. Daily tasks seem huger. Taking Care of other people and myself seems impossible. I feel inadequate and worthlessness because I try my best and it’s not good enough for society. People expect me to be normal. It’s tiring! I need people to accept me and support me for me. I’ve been depressed for 3 years, trying to get over it. I think about suicide regularly. I never mention it to my friends or family. I just bury my feelings deep down. Not good I don’t recommend it. Many reasons for my depression. I am dealing with some of my health issues such as nutritional deficiencies such as vitamin D, menopause, osteoarthritis, ear aches, whiplash, parasites, heavy metal toxicity, food intolerance, trigeminal neuralgia and thyroid desease. I did most of these medical test with a Naturopath. I was on antibiotics 8 times this year because of teeth infections. I have been in constant pain and it is very overwhelming. My husband listens to all my complaints, supports and soothes me. He is a good man! Exercise is the best medicine! Staying active is no problem for me because nature calls and I must have adventures often. I do yoga too. I got a new doctor and I have met her twice but I have yet to mention my A.D.D. Besides drugs and lifestyle what other advice might she have? When I asked her about my hormones at my Pap she replied “lifestyle” and I thought I am doing the best I can with my lifestyle so I guess menopause is enevable even if I am young. I’ll be 40 soon. My two son’s were diagnosed with A.D.H.D, one was recommended Concerta and the other one was recommended that the teacher teaches him in his own way. Both are getting extra help at school. My daughter has attention problems but no diagnosis.

I was born with colic and bottle feed, I believe I was allergic to dairy because I had a sore stomach my whole life until I gave up dairy and felt so much better.

I have a book by   called GAPS Gut and Psychology syndrome. I truly relate with this book. The following info is from the book. A human baby is born with a sterile gut and acquired most of its gut flora from the mother. So if the mother has an abnormal gut flora, that is what she will pass to her child. GAPS patients have a long list of nutritional deficiencies, due to abnormal digestion and absorption, so their immune system is not only unbalanced but also malnourished. It appears that when the whole of the immune system in GAPS children and adults is out of balance their immune system starts to produce antibodies attacking the body’s own tissues, including the brain and the rest of the nervous system.

I could keep writing but my New year’s plan is to write a book on this topic. I will focus my best! Sorry for throwing this on you but I feel alone and that’s why I started this blog, is that someone might relate to me and I can have a new friend. My husband, kids and pet’s are my dream come true ❤️ when I am sad I just give them extra love. Love is the answer! Just love and acceptance. Wishing you lots of love over the holidays and the New year ❤️